“Probably”?

I think I understand the sort of aw-shucks tone you’re going for here and in a few other spots in your apology. (Specifically, the “yeah, I kinda needed that” line near the end.) I don’t know what you think it conveys, but there’s some unquestionably creepy shit here, man.

To me, this one sentence undermines all that follows. Either you don’t really believe any of it (or enough of it) was creepy, or you’d like the reader to shrug and laugh it off with you.

I offer this critique to urge you to be careful: the aw shucks style that’s useful and accessible to midwestern boys like us is doing you a disservice here. If you’re going to own this stuff, then fucking own it.